by The Hippy Coyote
Billy Joel got famous because his wife was his manager. Of course, after he got all successful he dumped her and married Christy Brinkley, I think.
There have been countless Hollywood success stories where the success was founded on the working business relationship of lovers. That's what I wanted. Michelle used to dig through my cassettes and find songs she liked. She loved my writings. She loved my books and screenplays and inspired some poetry and songs...
I trained her to be my booking agent. She started booking me gigs in L.A. and wanted to run my music publishing business, Shaolin Music.
Perfect. Everything seemed perfect. Everything was perfect?
After our first kid, the marriage was over, the business was over, the bookings were over, the love of my music was over, her obedience was gone, my business partner quit and she got real fat.
Wow.
Don't come to me for advice.
I don't want to say, "Don't ever have kids."
I don't want to say, "Don't ever get married."
I don't want to say, "Don't do business with your lover."
And I don't want to say, "Don't trust women, because they lie."
I'm back at the beginning.
I'm not sure what I did wrong, and now I'm concerned I'll do it again.
Well, I've asked every single friend, and sometimes complete strangers, "What should I do about love?"
Maybe they are right, and maybe they are wrong, but the only answer I've gotten is that I should just get rich, have girlfriends, and stay detached.
That's it.
Of course, people who know me, know how active and wild and demanding my life is. None of them would want to be my wife, so I don't think they can envision someone capable of keeping up with me.
Maybe they're right, maybe they're wrong.
I'm an optimist first and pragmatist second, but I don't want to be a fool and I work hard to never make the same mistake twice or thrice.
Maybe it's like my life in Tujunga. I couldn't even find a friend to talk to, let alone a woman to interact with. Perhaps I'm in the wrong country?
Maybe now, with my worldwide audience, I can find the perfect girl in China, or France, or India, Italy, or Montrose?
The Coyote
Next page of the LEVEL 3 Website
CD Album Title: "LEVEL 3 = I Want You To Love Me"
Artist: American Zen
Record Company: Shaolin Records
Released: September 11, 2008
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