by The Hippy Coyote
Dear Melinda Lara:
With tears in my eyes I write for your forgiveness.
No, I do not leave you.
The opposite, I long for you more daily.
Yet, through my wet eyes, that glare and gloom, as I try to write you now,,,
I love you.
I love you so much, I don't know where it comes from. It wells up inside of me sometimes like the sweetest memory of my entire life.
I feel a passion in my soul. Oh, yes. My heart of course, but my soul for certain.
I KNOW I have a soul by the love I feel for you.
There are no boundaries to this unquenchable fire within me.
The promises I would make are without limit. My love for you strengthens me to the purpose of realizing that there is no greater power in the universe.
Not for love of father, or love of mother. This exceeds all.
I love you so that any other love is like raisins to a fresh apple.
I love you so that my life has meaning. With my love for you I find purpose in my own life.
My own altruistic goals of saving humanity have inspiration and encouragement by the love you inspire within me.
I love you.
I love you so much,,,I just love you more than I can describe. I love you more than I want to describe.
This love is for sharing.
I apologize again.
I think I have before, but with more sorrow, I truly apologize for all the mistakes of my life.
Maybe I haven't made any. Maybe I have. Maybe I'm looking to place BLAME somewhere so I can know how to fix it.
My lack of freedom, my lack of financial success. It plagues me now.
Only my faith in you gives me the faith to nurture this love between us and know that despite the darkness of my future, somewhere, I will emerge with you.
I laugh to myself. I could not imagine ever looking for another you. Could I find someone else. I couldn't try.
To compare anyone to you would be insulting to them and you. You are the finest. You are the perfect girl for me.
Your incredible beauty, that despite your beautifully molded flesh is an inspiration to any man...I SAW your inner real beauty. I saw you shine. Though only for moments, I can remember some of those moments when you truly glowed from within. I carry that light within me now.
I remember appreciating you like a father, but for qualities that I appreciated as a man.
You are my reward, in so many ways.
I've lived the best life I could live. Maybe I could've done some things better, but I honestly have always tried to do my best, and often exceeded my own expectations.
I cherish life. I cherish this planet.
I cherish being alive.
I love and adore the wonders and beauties as best my senses take notice of them.
I love a sunset and have many many times ushered my Gongfu classes out of the building to see a beautiful sunset, then hurry them back in to resume our workout.
I have taught people who wanted to die and taught them to want to live. All this I have done, inspired by a love within me, not even close to being requited thus far.
My loves have been so childish. I have been victim of a heart that sought a mate and blindly sought to uncover a diamond in the pebbles I chased.
I apologize for making you wait ... but I wait also for you.
I do.
I do.
I do wait for you.
I think of you all day.
Oh, this letter does not satiate me.
I hoped that my heartfelt and TEARFUL apology would purge me of this warm yet turned sorrowful LONGING for you.
I am unchanged.
There is no mercy in this love. This is it. This is the love of my life and it demands my body my mind my heart and my soul.
All so gladly I place in your hands. I trust like a baby with its mother. I trust you completely.
I want to be in your hands. I want to be in your arms.
I want to be embraced by you. I want to feel your looking at me.
I want to feel you somewhere near.
I want to look across a room and see you in that room with me.
I want to be with you.
I want to live with you.
I want to love with you.
I want to share my life with you.
I want to strengthen you with all that I have to give.
I love you.
I do.
Love,
Coyote
of the LEVEL 3 Website 
